waiting and waiting

Well, we had to put our first dog to sleep on Saturday - it was heartbreaking for us all. I contacted our adoption agency regarding the need to update our profile. They said, don't worry about updating the profile, just pray for the BIRTHMOM WHO WILL BE LOOKING AT IT TONIGHT! I think I sucked all the air out of the room when I read that! That was Monday, we still haven't heard anything from the agency. Tomorrow they're supposed to do their monthly phone call, so I hope we'll have some more info by then. It's driving me crazy! At first I was happy to have some hope, but now I think maybe I would have rather not known. I am a horrible waiter. God keeps trying to teach me............ and it stinks! :o)