prayers

I'm praying about quite a few adoption and pregnancy related things right now, but none of them are pertaining to me! lol A friend is taking injections trying to keep her 5th pregnancy and the outlook isn't good - she'll know today. She has one healthy child, but has had 3 miscarriages. It's so hard on her, and I've been there so I know how she feels. I'm praying for the new orphans the earthquake in Haiti created, and I'm hoping that the country can decide things quickly for their sakes. and a person I've never met before just posted a blog on adoptionvoices. She is 6 months pregnant w/twins and is having more trouble than any person should have while placing her children for adoption - read the post if you want, I'm not going to recap it. There's a possiblity that she's a scammer, but I'm going to pray for her anyway. Also, Tracy, the preacher's wife is considering going on a mission trip to an orphanage in China. Maybe all this praying for other people will help me refocus during this adoption process. I think that's what I need

beauty from ashes

Haitian orphans are being brought to the US to be adopted! How wonderful is that?! Not just for me, lol, for them! How amazing that their government allowed this instead of just shutting everything down. For once someone thought of the motherless and fatherless! Praise God! However, I'm curious about how this is going to work. Do the families need an international homestudy? If so, there's no way to get one approved - the Haitian government is in shambles right now. How will they make these adoptions legal? Is there some type of "calamity citizenship" offered by the US for such an occasion as this? I wish I knew the answers, because boy is this a situation that's close to my heart. My dad went to Haiti when I was 4 and I remember it vividly. I still have a maraca that he brought me. That was my dream growing up - to go on a mission trip to Haiti like my dad. Well, life happens you know, and there was never an opportunity. Wouldn't it be wicked awesome to have a Haitian mission trip right here? and wouldn't it be even awesomer (haha) to fulfill one of my heart's greatest desires at the same time? Oh who knows what will happen, not me that's for sure. But I do know that our God is GREAT. And I'm so thankful that the orphans are being adopted. Even if we're not part of it, I am so full of thanksgiving for all involved with that.

wondering

I am very thankful for my life, my husband, our son, our home, our church family, everything we have! So I wonder, why am I consumed with this desire/obsession over becoming a mommy again? I have so much here to keep me busy, so much to be thankful for. I shouldn't want more! But I can't just lay these thoughts aside - they will not go. Part of me feels that if Im truly thankful for everything I have, than I wouldn't want anymore. But, that's obviously not the case. I am ready for a little one! What's a girl to do?

no foster adoption for us

We are not a match with the foster child that we inquired about. We were informed that our son is too close to his age, and he has many needs. I suppose they think we won't be able to handle the needs of two little ones in the house at the same time. At least we got a fast answer. All the other foster children that we are homestudy approved for (those who are under 2 years old) have even more severe medical needs. This really depresses me - I would love to adopt a foster child! I know at least one of them lives in a medical facility, and not even in a home. Sometimes you have the capacity to help, and sometimes you just don't. Maybe later in life. We do want to be foster parents when our current children are grown. Only time will tell.

decisions?

Well, right now we are considering adopting a 1 yr old from foster care. He has a lot of delays, and has a family history of mental retardation, but I keep thinking about him. From what they listed, I think we would probably be able to manage his needs pretty well, but who knows. I don't know anything about the process when you are adopting from foster care, or how long it takes, or anything! I joined an adoption group for those who are adopting from foster care, so hopefully I can get some questions answered. Who knows what we will be led to do...... but the worst part is in the not knowing. for me anyway.